Wednesday, December 30, 2009

He is Coming Home!

Jonathan will be on his way home next Monday the 4th! No, he will not be home for good, but we will have 15 days!!! I'm so excited that I don't know what to do with myself. All I think about these days are picking him up from the airport and being able to spend quality time together. I haven't seen him in 7 long months. Yes, I have seen him on webcam a few times, but it is not the same as seeing him in person. I keep telling him that I just can't wait to touch his face, hold his hand or even have the comfort of knowing he is really close to me.

I now have to get busy! I have to make the sure the house is in tip top shape so I don't have to clean very much while he is here. I also have to get the laundry under control (my least favorite thing), make sure his "Man Room" is all put together, and stock the cabinets with food. So needless to say, I will be busy this weekend.....but I'm not complaining at all!

Oh my goodness gracious.....I'm just too EXCITED!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Can I Please Call???

So tonight is one of those nights when I want to pick up the phone and call Jonathan. That is one thing I took for granted before. I had never been a person to want to talk on the phone....until Jonathan left. Now, I don't want to him to hang up. I dread the end of our phone conversations. I just so badly want to dial his number and hear that beautiful voice. Although, I did get to talk to him for a good bit today online. It was so nice to have an actual conversation other than the 2 minute conversations. I love it, but it also makes me realize what I'm missing.

So, I'm sitting here with my dogs missing my husband. I thought I would get used to this feeling.....but I don't think anyone can get used to it. I love you and miss you Jonathan!

I hate to watchEach time you leave
And I hide from you
How much I grieve
I know it’s your duty
And you will go
But once you are gone
I will miss you so
I know you’ll come home
As soon as you can
But right now you’ll deploy
Like an honorable man
So I’ll keep things together
Till you can come back
But, this is where you belong
Not some desert in Afghanistan
Yet, I do understand
Why you risk you’re life
For that’s a Soldier’s job
And I’m a Soldier’s wife.
By Darla Foster

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

3 Months and Counting...

So Jonathan has been gone for 3 months. These past 3 months have seemed so long! It seems like he has been gone forever. I can't say I'm used to him being gone. I still have those days where I just can't stop thinking about how much I miss him. I know the loneliness will not go away, I just have to learn how to deal with it.

We found out that he gets to come home in January for 2 weeks! I cannot wait! I'm already planning my time off from work and planning a few surprises for Jonathan as well. Is it bad for me to wish 4 months away??

Pray for me over the next few weeks. I'm really trying to keep my head up everyday and keep a good attitude about the whole situation. It is soooooo hard, but I know I can do it.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Chattanooga and Kids Camp

Since the last time I blogged, I went on a weekend vacation to Chattanooga on July 4th and just finished working at Kids Camp 2009. These were both exciting events that kept me busy. We all know how I love to stay busy while Jonathan is gone! It keeps the time flying!!!

Chattanooga was really nice. We went to Look Out Mountain, a 60's themed show, the Chattanooga aquarium, and lastly a singing waiters restaurant. I have always loved Look Out Mountain ever since I was a little girl. Although it seems much smaller than it did when I was 7. Jonathan and I went to Look Out Mountain on our way to our honeymoon. So of course the whole time I was there with my family, I was thinking of Jonathan. I kept letting it get to me and I started to get down about the whole thing. I was surrounded by newlyweds and happy couples everywhere! You know there are just some days when I don't want to see a happy couple. I know that sounds bad, but it is the honest truth. But anyways, I got through it and had a little fun in the meantime.
The 60's show was pretty good. It was a little cheesy, but my grandparents loved it! They pulled my Pawpaw on stage. My Pawpaw hates wearing shirts and shoes. He would never wear them if my Nana didn't make him. Anyways, they pulled him on stage and he went up there without any shoes on! I was so embarrassed! It was funny though, he was the Alabamian not wearing shoes.
The aquarium was pretty good. Honestly, I get bored with stuff like that very easily. They probably had 5,000 different kinds of fish. Honestly, how many fish do we really have? And most important, who cares??? Needless to say, the aquarium was my least favorite.
The singing waitor restuarant was really good. Great food and great entertainment. The waitors would all get up on stage and sing. They all sang songs that are popular, but they all were great singers!

Jonathan and I meet three years ago at Kids Camp. I was staying overnight with a group of girls and he was working the water slide. He flirted with me the whole time. I didn't think much of it because he knew he was a flirt anyways. Well the day after Kids Camp, he asked me out on a date and the rest in history. He also proposed to me at Kids Camp at the exact spot where we first met. He is so romantic! So this year it Kids Camp, I was obviously sad. It was not as much fun for me obviously because he was not there. I know he loves Kids Camp and wanted to be there also. Kids Camp means alot to Jonathan and I. Not only because we met there, but because we both love kids. He loves playing with them and becoming their best friend. I love being able to witness to children who may not understand why Jesus died for our sins and to the children who have never heard about Jesus. Kids Camp is a really great ministry to children and adults.

I thought I had finally adjusted to being by myself, but it gets really hard with events like these. I just pray that we will never have to be apart again after this deployment. I want him here with me when I go on vacation with my family. I want him here with me for Kids Camp. I know to some people, most of this sounds silly. Honestly, I used to be one of those people. I always supported the troops and their families, but always thought "how hard can it be?" Well now I know! You don't know until you have been in that position. Let me tell you, this is a position I never want to be in again!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

And so it begins.....Again

I will start out by saying this has been the longest week ever, and it is not even over! Jonathan left the country Monday night. I have only heard from him three times since he left. All three times have been very, very short. He has had just enough time to tell me where he is, what he is doing and where he will be next. He still has not reached his destination, but should be there soon.
I have already had a few crazy moments. I have found myself talking to my dogs like they understand every word I say! Sunday night I had my "breakdown". I sat in my bed crying as I talked to Rosie and Rebel. I would grab one of them and hug them as I cried. They did not like it at all! Who knows, they may understand what I'm saying. :)
I have had to be extra strong these past few days. It takes all that I have to get out of bed and go to work with a smile on my face. Every morning when I get to work, my friend will ask "So, are you okay today? I can be your rock, but only for the next 30 minutes." She always tears up as she says it. I can now expect it every morning. I'm so lucky to have girls at work that I can talk to durring the day. I can talk to them about my worries and distress and they just simply listen. It truely is a blessing to have such friends durring such a tough time in my life.

I really don't want this blog to be me complaining about Jonathan not being here. There are alot of women out there going through the same thing or about to go through it. I know of 2 women off the top of my head that are facing a deployment. I hope to reach out to other people and help them the way others have helped me. Families and friends left back home have to stick together. It helps so much when you have someone here at home going through the same thing. You have someone who knows exactly how you feel. They will not think your crazy when you take off running towards your phone when you hear it ring. They understand when you are just having one of those TOUGH days. They are here to encourage and listen. Last deployment I was floored with all the people who gave me cards, books, Bible verses, and even CDs that helped them through their deployment. I would bring me to tears and still does. In a world where everything is about "me", there are still some people who truely care for others and want to help them. I do have to say I'm truely blessed to have such great friends and family to be my rock and encouragment.
So as I always say "I'm going to put my big girl panties on and deal with it". I can and will get through this deployment with my head held high. As long as I have God on my side, it will all come out okay.
Please pray for Jonathan this week. He is still traveling and I'm not sure when he will finally be to his final destination.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Ahh, What a Great Week!

This past week Cami and I traveled to Fort McCoy, Wisconsin to see our husbands one last time. It was the best week I have had in a long time! I was nervous about traveling that far, but it wasn't that bad.

We flew from Birmingham to Detroit on Monday morning. We were so excited and could not wait to get there....which brings me to a funny story. Cami and I were walking through the Detroit airport. People were flying by us. Everyone in a hurry! They had what I call "flat escalators". Throughout the whole airport they had two going north and two going south. Well we came to a new set of the "flat escalators" and got on the wrong side! I started walking on it and realized it was moving the other way with people heading toward me. I turned around to tell Cami not to get on it, but she had already stepped on. She screamed and we both were tripping all over our luggage and each other. By the time we got up and stepped on the right "moving escalator" everyone was staring at us. We got off and realized our boarding station was right where we fell. So we had to go sit down next to all the people who saw us fall and act a fool. To make things worse, we both had on Alabama shirts! Oh, we were so embarrassed!

The rest of the week was great! We arrived at Fort McCoy and got to see the guys on Monday and Tuesday. We were not supposed to see them until late Tuesday night. We ate at a few local restaurants, went to The Butter Fest (Their slogan was "What Happens at Butter Fest Butter Stay at Butter Fest). It was basically a carnival with vendors set up selling anything and everything. We walked around for a few hours and had a lot of fun. Jonathan and I later went to a mall in LaCrosse, WI. While we were there, we got to play with baby tigers!! We had so much fun and she was so cute!! I tried to upload some pictures, but I cannot figure out how to put them where I want them. I will play with it later. :)
We said goodbye Saturday night. It was much easier this time to leave. We had such a relaxing week, so when it ended it wasn't as bad. We both cried a little, huged and kissed. He didn't have to peel himself away from me this time. I had mentally and emotionally prepared myself.
Cami and I got on the plan yesterday afternoon and arrived in Alabama around 10pm. I am exhausted beyond all measures, but feel so blessed to have been able to see him one more time. Now I'm looking forward to mid-term leave! Hopefully it will be around October or November.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Just the Beginning

Several people have asked me to start a blog on our upcoming deployment. At first I thought those people were crazy, but now I kind of like this. I hope to use this blog for everyone to follow Jonathan and I and our journey. Jonathan is in the Army National Guard here in Alabama. He was deployed to Iraq in 2007-2008 and will serve in Afghanistan for 2009-2010. Durring the last deployment Jonathan and I were engaged. He proposed to me on September 14, 2007 and left for Iraq on September 22nd. We got married August 2, 2008 and Jonathan will go to Afghanistan sometime in mid June. Talk about emotions!

This deployment is very different for Jonathan and I. Not only are we married this time, but it is round two. We know what to expect this time and have tried to mentally prepare ourselves, but it is much harder than it was last time. Last deployment I still lived at home with my parents so most of my everyday life did not change. Everything has changed this time! I now live at home by myself with our two dogs, Rosie and Rebel.

One of Jonathan's really good friends is going with him overseas. I hate that he has to go, but it has helped having his wife here who is going through the same thing I am. I have my family and Jonathan's family going through it as well, but it is nice to have someone who shares your same feelings. She walks in the same shoes I do everyday. We have already learned to lean on each other as much as possible. Next Monday she and I will travel to Fort McCoy, Wisconsin to see our husbands for one last time. I'm very nervous and anxious. I cannot wait to see him, but also know it will be the last time I will see him in person for a long time. I know I will do okay though...

Well hopefully I can keep all readers interested. I have never done anything like this before, so this is brand new to me. I may have trouble to begin with, but hopefully I will get better. I may also need help navigating this blog. I have played with it for about an hour now, but still feel like I don't know what to do.